♥ Barbara's ♥

2012-02-17T00:08:00.000+07:00

berjuang! thats the only one word , yang gue tanamkan di pikiran gue :)

2012-02-13T12:39:00.000+07:00

siapa bilang gak bisa? itu masalah kemauan. jangan salahkan masa remaja untuk sebuah kekeliruan yang kita lakukan , karena letak kontrol ada pada diri kita sendiri. mau melakukan sesuatu yang benar atau salah kita yang putuskan bukan? jadi gak ada namanya "kebetulan" . segala akibat ada sebabnya.
di pikiran saya.

2012-02-11T19:56:00.002+07:00

saya rasa sudah mulai terlihat efeknya. lengan saya kebelaaaaah :D

2012-02-11T00:37:00.001+07:00

you always have my heart . keep it always next to yours and bring it safely back to me which is sticking with yours.
i will always love you, Barbara.

2012-02-11T00:30:00.001+07:00

saya gak pernah serasa ini. dalam hitungan detik terdengar suara. saya mengambil napas. dan......halo......
tak bisa di kontrol ya air mata saya mengalir tiba2..tahan tahan dan tahan jangan sampai terdengar suara air mata...

yaa rinduku membara.

2012-02-10T23:53:00.002+07:00

"missing is not dead"

-Caroline Thomas

2012-02-10T23:36:00.000+07:00

but then i saw you, and i think about our life time together and i remember so many things we do :)

but for the life in me, i cant remember the time when i wasn't in love with you...

one thing i learned from this long distance relationship was not to waste any time

2012-02-10T19:18:00.001+07:00

never think about something wrong you did in the past . always look forward with your head up high and make a better one . Have no regret .

2012-02-10T11:16:00.000+07:00

nampaknya ini semakin parah.
saat duduk lama dan ingin berdiri , sampai saya terjatuh. bukannya ini sudah parah?

oh anemia.

2012-02-08T04:02:00.001+07:00

saya ingin di lukis dengan pose seperti ini . bukan bagaimana , tapi menurut saya terlihat natural and beauty

2012-02-08T03:31:00.000+07:00

Maha , why its so hard to tell him that i .................... ? ah forget it , it'll be no response.

2012-02-08T03:01:00.000+07:00

am i making believe i see in you a man to perfect too be really true?
do i want you because youre wonderful or are you wonderful because i want you?
are you the sweet invention of a lover's dream or are you really as wonderful as you seem?

goodnight love.

2012-02-08T01:55:00.000+07:00

tiba-tiba saat saya sedang late night talk via bbm sama teman saya sebut saja "yo"

begini...

yo : gue lagi ngebayangin ketika..... (tidak ada lanjutan dan ini minta banget di tanya)
saya : (berhubung saya kepo-an tapi saya memancing dia untuk ngasih tau tanpa saya bertanya) zzz -___-"
yo : gue lagi ngebayangin ketika gue melihat anak gue lahir , terus udah bisa jalan , udah bisa ngomong , udah bisa makan sendiri , udah bisa pake baju sendiri , sampai bisa ngocok sendiri. rasanya jadi orang tua.
saya : oh.
yo : belom minum obat lo?
saya : obat apaan dah...
yo : JUDEDOL . (klo buat panas panadol , klo buat judes judedol) hahahaha :D
saya : jayus.
yo : kejam :'(
saya : (end chat)

its a rare joke seriously , yo.

2012-02-08T01:18:00.002+07:00

buat apiku menyala, dan buat rinduku membara

2012-02-08T00:13:00.001+07:00

lesson to learn from Bapak :

esensinya menabung. Karena menabung itu perlu perjuangan dan kesabaran. nggak enaknya nabung kan lama, susah payah nahan2 keinginan. Harusnya bisa spend uang yg udah kamu tabung itu utk yang bener2 istimewa, bagus, dan sangat kamu butuhkan.
harus bisa menentukan prioritas yg mana yg kira2 worth untuk dibeli. Jangan asal dihabiskan utk sesuatu yang kurang penting.

2012-02-08T00:00:00.000+07:00

bijaksana adalah ketika saya bisa merelakan apa yang saya senangi untuk sesuatu yang memang terbaik untuk hidup dan masa depan saya.

am i right?

2012-02-07T23:06:00.000+07:00

the best relationship isnt the one that bringstogether perfect people . but when individual learns to live with the imperfections of each other

2012-02-07T01:10:00.002+07:00

yaaaa. saya harus merubah pola tidur saya yang terbalik.

goodnight.

2012-02-07T00:57:00.000+07:00

saya iseng sekali melukis wajahnya suami sayaa :D dan dengan bangga saya perlihatkan ke beberapa orang dan alhasil respon mereka "kayaknya muka dia gak begini deh" "kayaknya matanya kurang bulet deh" "kayaknya rambutnya kurang kriwil deh" dan kayaknya kayaknya lainnya. hahahhaa kalo sempat akan segera saya scan :D

ciao!

i love my life

2012-02-07T00:52:00.000+07:00

i start to fall..NOOOOO!

really hope that this is just my...... what do you call? sudden emotion? bahasa apa itu saya juga gak tau. hahahha..
ya pada intinya saya nggak menyerah sih, hell no. cuma mungkin sedikit kelelahan dan terengah-engah yaa..
i think i'll take my time for a while.

oh reality.

2012-02-06T03:18:00.000+07:00

kamu: ayo tidur

kamu: mengistirahatkan aku

kamu: matikan. dan aku akan menidurimu.

well, goodnight .

(kamu=pikiran)

2012-02-06T02:50:00.000+07:00

Saint Barbara The protectress against fire and lightning

click on the link above.

2012-02-06T02:37:00.001+07:00

kopekin saja terus bibir keringnya sampai berdarah. ya.. cium doong :*

2012-02-06T02:27:00.000+07:00

" i miss the moment when hearing you sing a song was the only one what make my dreams"
it's my Boyfriend's personal message bbm. im not sure who he's talking about. but though , yeaa i miss when you sing a song for me until i slept . saint of my live by SID , thats so bobok sooooong *.*

2012-02-06T02:12:00.000+07:00

saya lagi suka sekali sm lagu ini lihat bagian menit 01:13 . lagu bobok sekali aaaaa

2012-02-06T02:01:00.000+07:00

"it is something unprecidtable, but in the end it is right. so dont ask why, it is not a question but a lesson learned in time"

-Greenday

2012-02-06T01:55:00.000+07:00

pelan-pelan

click on the text above

2012-02-06T01:37:00.000+07:00

i may not a fashionable girl with dress or branded clothes but i do have jeans and t-shirts, do you mind?

2012-02-06T01:26:00.000+07:00

bagaimana cara mencintai sesuatu yang utuh dan bukan mencintai yang utuh.. di dunia ini ada yg utuh?

2012-02-05T13:41:00.000+07:00

saya menyadari sesuatu, ternyata cinta itu ada bukan untuk membuat kita senang semata.
trust me, it exists to show us how much we can endure.

#trytothinkrealistic

2012-02-05T12:52:00.000+07:00

"anyone can become angry-----that is easy
but to be angry with the right person, with the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose , and in the right way---this is not easy"

-ARISTOTLE

2012-02-05T12:43:00.002+07:00

workhardandstayhumble

2012-02-05T12:15:00.000+07:00

based on my love life, what i learned about loving and being loved:

being deeply loved by someone gives you strength , while loving someone deeply gives you courage .

2012-02-05T10:57:00.001+07:00

what ive been thinking of this morning ?!

shut the fuck up, i-dont-understand

ketika saya liat jam...oh its o5:o5 , ive been sleeping for one hour since o4:o4 terakhir saya bbman sm pacar saya.
seperti biasa : "selamat pagi sayang have a nice day (fuck!!!! i miss you so much dude) , hugs and kisses"
yup. masuk lah saya ke kamar mandi and brushing my teeth , foaming my face once , sabunan badan , shampo-an , aaaandddd foaming my face twice. yup setelah sabun facial foam saya nempel ke muka baru sadar "MAAAAN. tadi kan udah cuci muka"

yang saya pikirkan itu mimpi saya dimana bots ngambil bb saya dan menukar sim card saya di dalamnya dengan miliknya.. lalu saya berpikir, apa yg di lakukan bots pasti memiliki sebuah tujuan. that's him. so? apa arti mimpi saya?
r-a-n-d-o-m .

2012-02-05T03:21:00.000+07:00

A LACK OF KNOWLEDGE CAUSES US HARD TO APPRECIATE THINGS. BE SMART OR SHUT UP.

.BE.LA.JAR-BA.NYAK.

2012-02-05T03:15:00.000+07:00

aaaaaaa need to do something indeed

2012-02-05T03:05:00.000+07:00

selalu ada waktu untuk memahami dan menikmati dunia tepat saat merebah dan sebelum akhirnya terlelap kelelahan

~~insomniac~~

2012-02-05T02:56:00.000+07:00

Based on my experience in dance...

confidence and moves are not enough to make you feel sexy. you also work (so hard) on EVERYSINGLE detail to make you feel sexy.....because sexy is not cheesy

~~and its frustating~~

2012-02-05T02:51:00.002+07:00

Maha, ketika kita bertemu di dalam pikiran, apakah aku berdoa?

2012-02-05T02:10:00.000+07:00

quote omong kosong menurut saya:

"saya bahagia kalo liat kamu bahagia sama dia"

hahah gak tau yaa yg kalian pikirkan, saya gak menyalahkan.. tapi ya saya hanya mencoba berpikir realistis saja :D

2012-02-05T02:03:00.000+07:00

1. you may be flirting around all day but before you go to sleep, are you think about me , the girl who truly care about you?

2012-02-05T01:45:00.000+07:00

"jodoh gak lari kemana dan jodoh ada di tangan KITA" ---> ini gue setuju

tapi kalo....

"mencintai tak harus memiliki" ---> zzzzz buat orang yang berani ngomong gini...muna lo..

2012-02-05T01:40:00.000+07:00

"past is a good place to visit but not a good place to stay"

2012-02-05T01:05:00.000+07:00

sometime's , i imagine life like a piano. the white keys represent happiness , and the black keys represent sadness.
but as you go through life's journey , remember that the black keys make music too .

2012-02-05T01:01:00.002+07:00

"aku bukannya hendak mengeluh, tapi rasanya terlalu sebentar waktu yang ku habiskan bersamamu"

-Aku

2012-02-05T00:59:00.001+07:00

late night in bed, i just lay and think about every single stupid thing ive ever said, every mistake ive ever made, relationship ive fucked, time ive felt like dying (which is a lot) and all at once it comes to haunt me.
a collective ghost of my disappointments and fears.

- salahnya saya yang gak sabaran
- salahnya saya yang mengembangkan masalah
- salahnya saya yang lebih pake emosi daripada logika
- salahnya saya yang butuh perhatian
- salahnya saya yang bersikap bak anak SMP
- salahnya saya yang tidak bisa berpikir cekatan
- salahnya saya yang selalu ngomong dulu baru bertanya
- salahnya saya yang mikir jelek kalo lagi marah
- salahnya saya yang terus minta di support
- salahnya saya yang minta dia selalu tersenyum pada saya
- salahnya saya yang selalu salah
- ..........

2012-01-31T22:57:00.002+07:00

2012-01-31T22:36:00.003+07:00

im trying to understand the unthinkable thought

1. men always mean it to people they love

2. he just need my smile when he get tired, just smile, and indeed he will do it again for me

3. he knows when i just wanted to shut up and show that i get bored and he will remain patiened

4. he dont want to be seen like he didnt understand me by asking "so what you want?" because he had exactly known that i dont know what i really wanted actually

5. he will silent for a moment and think how to make my smile back, then he really immediately will return my smile

6. where i always thought the most romantic things he would do to me but he will never do.

7. he will think harder and harder, "memutar otak" , and setting up a surprise which i dont even think about.

8. he will be ignorance not because he doesnt care, but what he thought was being a good leader for me and make him self more wisely in front of me.

9. whenever i felt that i cant face something by myself , openly , he will try to help me as much as him.

10. if he couldnt help me , the only way he has in mind was to accompany me , but he still remind me dont forget to eat and get enough rest because for him , my health was the most important

11.although he often left me to play with his friends, but he never forget about me, he keep talking about me and even priding me in front of his friend

12. i realize that he's no longer a baby to be reminded to eat and he reacted like he doesnt care about what i say. but when i reminded him not to forget to eat, i know he always thanked me for reminding him although not to pronounce the word "thank you" but he always replied me with "kamu juga yaa jangan lupa makan" and i realize that you really sincere thank you to me.

13. when he ignored me, in the same time and the same thought, he was thinking a surprise for me.

14. when he gives me something meaningful for him its just to show me how much i really meant to him and especially to see me smile.

15. when i cried, trust me that none of those man would see you cry and he directly ask you to stop crying, but surely he listened to every words in my tears and he would stay on my side though i cried until i laughed, or even i cried until i fall asleep he would stay awake for me.

16. when i complained about my weight and the size of my jeans which is bigger than before, yes he laughed. but he would never stop saying "kamu cantik" its because he's not looking for "an angel without reproach" or "the most beautiful women in the world" , but he's looking for someone who always there for him.

17. when i needed him, and when i said "gak usah deh gak jadi" he would still be there for me.

18. the most important thing i noticed from him, whenever i hurt him, he still stand strong, fight for me, defend me, and still keeping my smile amazing.

19. etc....

thats why i believe you that much, here's the things what makes me believe you that you loved me.

2012-01-31T21:22:00.000+07:00

life has a lot of reaction to stimuli that are sometimes not really necessary . but i have 2 principles about my life: priorities and realistic

2012-01-30T18:16:00.000+07:00

im not a good lover. i mess up. i start fights. i get jealous easily. i am demanding. and i always get mad.

but there are three things i do love about myself
1. i dont play
2. i give my all
3. i love deeply

2012-01-23T11:56:00.001+07:00

2012-01-23T11:27:00.001+07:00

2012-01-23T11:04:00.001+07:00

2012-01-23T11:03:00.001+07:00

2012-01-23T10:59:00.000+07:00

"the beautiful journey of today can only begin when we learn to let go of yesterday"

2012-01-12T19:51:00.003+07:00

she said that im too naive. he said that im too stupid. my sister said that i dont deserve this. my mother said that im too patient. my father said that im too stubborn.

so whats up? i am young , wild and free.

2012-01-10T22:21:00.000+07:00

2012-01-10T22:09:00.001+07:00

once i told you, i will accompany you as lively as dead.

yours, Bra.

you got me here

2012-01-10T21:56:00.001+07:00

just tell me whats going on sweetheart.

2012-01-10T21:29:00.001+07:00

what i do to make you believe me?

how it feels? when you wanna know what makes him/her feeling sad, want to make them feel better, but you cant , because they wont tell you what happened to them.

its like you were in a room full of people but no one see you there. youre trying to do something, trying to say a word but you dont know who will see you and anyone who wanna hear you. feels like you wanna touch someone but you cant reach them. whenever you try to reach someone, you become so fragile.

all you needed is someone who needs you.

lets sing with me :')

2011-10-14T23:50:00.002+07:00

Goodnight, goodnight my little angel

Goodnight, goodnight my little ones

Spread your wings and fly away into your dreams

When you were slept i’m on your side

and When your awake i’ll be there still

Close your eyes for the smile on your faces..

Don’t be scare, cause i’ll be there to hold you tight

You’re the king, you’re the queen, you’re the saint of my life..

When your awake it’s trembling down don’t you cry

cause there’s nothing, nothing then will keep us a part

aaahhaaaahhaaaa

Sing with me my little darling..

Sing a long to this lullaby..

Big there mouth kiss the stars

so goodnight….

i love you.

i have no idea for the title

2011-10-14T23:11:00.001+07:00

i still cannot believe that ive to broke someones heart.. bahkan dalam kondisi seperti ini theres some other guy who admitted that they love me. i cant deny they're such an incredible person. they cared about me . they listen to my every single grumble.. and one of them was my ex bf who told me that will never let me go for the second time. they arent concerned who is in relationship with me now, they only wanna spent their lifetime with me, ahh yeah all i can say "youre all incredible to be truth" i never felt like this before, its up and down..
but..
you guys should know, i am crazy about you guys but theres someone else that i madly in love with. he's my boyfriend and he was not just a boyfriend, he's totally the man that ive been crushing on for all of time. ive been committed,to marry with him, to spend the rest of my life with him and i just cant wait to face the joy of this life with him.
im sorry if i was crying when we on the phone, i know its just make you more broken. but its just too emotional. its bring me ups and downs. im also quite hurt to letting you go, and to see you walk away but on the other side i was so happy to know that he's the one that adored me and i adored him as well.
you can call me just to make sure that youre find and got the lucky girl and be happy.

...beside i just cant wait to show the world that he will be with me from this moment and forever :D

sincerely, Barbara Vania

2011-10-05T22:27:00.000+07:00

liat gue , begitu nyata mencintai kamu . come on! bring it back your spirit .. just go with it and get well soon ..

2011-10-05T21:54:00.001+07:00

Bra ♥ Bots

get well soon baby

2011-10-05T21:37:00.000+07:00

dear bots, you have to get well really soon!
i always pray for you sweetheart, ask for the good things for you. i know you'd never want to bother anyone with carrying you but i always care about you. no, i absolutely cannot ignore you. so anything i have to do to give the best thing for you, i'll do. im hurt when i have to see you get sick ..
i love you. so please get well soon for me. not just for me , for your family, for everything we've been through , for us.

aku sedih kamu gak jadi pulang jumat besok , karena jujur untuk jalanin LDR ini lagi butuh persiapan, dn kmrn aku bener2 gak ada persiapan karena aku pikir kamu akan pulang jumat ini. ternyata gak jadi ya , but thats fine. aku akan jalanin smua ini , face the fear because i do love you so fuckin this much and its just because you stand by me stronger :) in the end , i want the world to see you'll be with me.

sincerely , Bra xoxo

2011-10-04T22:01:00.000+07:00

you know you made in heaven, the way you walk the way you talk and every inch of your smiles out desire .you such a rush, the rush which is never ending. i just loved the way that you move, the way you are..

cc: bots.

im desperately miss my boyfriend

2011-09-14T00:10:00.000+07:00

I m You

2011-09-12T22:30:00.002+07:00

brain = sexy

2011-09-12T15:08:00.001+07:00

i love boys with brain. always and will always. theyre sexy. and thank god i have the one and only my beloved boyfie, Gerard.
kiss kiss

2011-09-12T15:02:00.003+07:00

"there are one thing in this world i just cant give up"

learn to fly.

2011-09-12T00:55:00.000+07:00

its less than 24 hours after he left Jakarta. and super really like last 2 months where i desperately counted everyday to this day. time really flies in an illegal speed this last 2 months. i learned so many things from him which i can conclude.
a) dont ever judge others if you cant judge yourself.
b) never believe what you heard. believe what you saw.
c) appriciate everyone because youre not necessarily better than anyone
d) never run from any trouble , solve it until completely solved.
e) do what ever you think is right, dont depend on others
f) try to know yourself better, so that you can strike down and push other easily
g) find out and learn from the experiences, so that peoples cant bring you down.
h) dont ask to be loved by others , but do something which can makes you worthy to be loved by others.
i) always trying , because no matter how your efforts it'll be certainly paid off
(j) make your past as a life lesson . learn from the experiences .
(k) etc..

thanks to my crazy-wild-helpful-talkative-sweet-superhero-fashionable-supersmart-dilligent-comfort boyfriend, Gerardus Randita Bramantya, who made everyday so exciting hence made me always get up when i am fall.ailovjuuu :*

sincerely, bra.

2011-09-06T23:58:00.002+07:00

"semua hal yang lo takutin akan terus kembali kepada lo, sampai lo berani menghadapi itu sendiri"

2011-09-06T23:56:00.000+07:00

dear Lord, i dont ask You to make my life easier, but i ask You to give me strength to face the fear.

2011-08-18T00:28:00.001+07:00

"you cant imagine how much im bloody hell missed you"

2011-08-17T23:55:00.002+07:00

please smile.
and let me kiss your smile.

im gonna say it to you, but i dont know when. you tell me..

2011-08-17T23:13:00.000+07:00

white musk smooth satin body lotion from body shop. he's the one (boy) who wanna try my body lotion which is smells like girls when i promote that lotion for my final practice exam at the time:)

aaaa i love you i love you i love you. kronisnya, aku kangen sama kamu bots.

2011-08-17T22:58:00.002+07:00

you know what i want.
i wanna be kissed
i think you can do that.

2011-08-15T23:31:00.001+07:00

"if you dont care, i care. so what? thats why i love you like this way."

gerardus randita bramantya

2011-08-15T00:45:00.000+07:00

maafin aku bots..

the point is,

2011-08-14T23:54:00.000+07:00

"karena aku ingin kamu, itu saja"

2011-08-14T23:34:00.000+07:00

I know it's my fault. if I did not behave like that, maybe you will not behave like this to me.
tens words i will explain it to you, hundreds sorry i will say it to you, and thousand ways i will do it to show you

Takut by Vierra

2011-08-14T13:34:00.003+07:00

ku tahu kamu bosan, ku tahu kamu jenuh
ku tahu kamu tak tahan lagi
ini semua salahku, ini semua sebabku
ku tahu kamu tak tahan lagi

(jangan sedih, jangan sedih
aku pasti setia)

reff:
aku takut kamu pergi
kamu hilang, kamu sakit
aku ingin kau di sini
di sampingku selamanya

(jangan takut, jangan sedih
aku pasti setia)

repeat reff

aku ingin kau di sini
di sampingku selamanya

aku takut (jangan takut) kamu pergi (takkan pergi)
kamu hilang (wooo), kamu sakit
aku ingin (aku juga) kau di sini (bersamamu)
di sampingku (di sampingmu) selamanya

like maroon 5 said

2011-08-13T21:02:00.001+07:00

"i am in misery, then aint nobody who can comfort me. but why wont you answer me, your silences slowly killing me!"

2011-08-13T13:16:00.000+07:00

so much has happened in these past few weeks, all the arguments and everything seems as if it's happening because time runs by us and we don't have much time with each other due to hectic days. I just wanted to tell you that no matter what has happened, I still love you with my entire heart, and I know that these misunderstandings don't mean anything more than just arguing at that very moment. With all this, you seem to think I don't love you anymore and I know I haven't been showing it to you either. However, from this day on, I'm going to try harder to become a better person, and not be so adamant about everything, because last night I realized that you are the most important person in my life and that if I continue like this, I may just lose the love we share. Anyways, I'll end now, with much love, trust and with confidence to become a better person from now onwards. I love you, Bots.

sincerely, Bra

letters from Jakarta to Semarang

2011-08-13T13:01:00.001+07:00

i dont know what to do to show you how far i love you.
really i cant hold my tears when i know your eyes wont stare at mine sharply anymore. and now i caught in my fears, is there any bit of trembling you feel inside when i lay my head back down and i lift my hand and started to pray. begging to Him and say "please dont keep him away from me" and still say "i do love him, Lord" but when i started to repeat my word, the tears rundown my face and i cant regret. still hope that you would hear this tears screaming to you.
im just a human with all of her weaknesses loves you no matter what. i dont know what to do. this is just life, my life comes so wrong. shit happen when youre not here with me. shit happen when youre not care of me anymore. shit happen when youre wont supporting me at all. but i know now ive my strength to stand up alone.

all i wanna say to you even you wont hear , I just want to thank you for all the support, love, and care. Though I've been through a lot of pain and sacrifices in loving you, it doesn't matter for me; I love you very much and I really mean it. I know it's difficult for you to decide, but whatever the outcome of our relationship is, I just want you to know that I've never regretted any moment of our relationship and I will cherished the good and bad memories of what we had together.

I just want to say sorry if I hurt your feelings ... I just want you to know that I'm thankful that you came into my life and I will love you for the rest of my life.

you have to believe me , i love you so much like i'll take any risks, like i would give my life as a guarantee just to show you how deep i fell in love.
just try to remember , here is me, always love you with all my best no matter how no matter what, from this moment and forever, Gerardus Randita Bramantya. im sorry im not that enough for you.

sincerely, Bra.

2011-08-12T14:08:00.000+07:00

i miss every little thing you do. but most of all i miss the way you said "I love you" when you hold my hand tightly, when your eyes look into mine sharply , and theres a smile on your face that make me wanna say "i always love you more" even i dont wanna to told you that.

2011-08-12T13:43:00.000+07:00

when everything's going so wrong , i just need you to hold me tight.

2011-08-07T21:54:00.002+07:00

though we try to be masters of our souls and captains of our fate, it its the lucky ones who achieve their goals,while others have to wait.

al stillman,1957

i cant// i dont want to

2011-08-07T21:52:00.000+07:00

if i say, i cant, its just because i dont wanna do that. i can do anything i want to.

2011-08-07T21:44:00.000+07:00

"the past did not like the present, the present did not like the future and so on. everyone else must be changed even if they wanted or not."

2011-08-04T21:19:00.003+07:00

as long as I can continue to have fun with him, I'll accept any risk.

youre for forever

2011-08-04T21:11:00.001+07:00

maybe you're not for today, tomorrow, next week, next month or next year. but i assure you, youre for me for forever, Gerardus Randita Bramantya.

ps. i wrote my own ending :D

belongs to you, Gerardbald

2011-08-04T21:06:00.000+07:00

if I go, will you stand in the same place, waiting until I get back? or are you going to find me and take me back to the same point?

if I laugh, will this warm blows into your heart and bring a glimmer of a calm to you?

if I no longer interesting, and my attitude began to make you upset, would your love will still remain stuck in your soul for me?

if my eyes are no longer staring at you, would you look at me sharply towards me, so I still feel that you keep watching and take care of me?

because you always make me want to promise you. promise to always stuck on you.

2011-08-04T20:51:00.000+07:00

i always in love with you, bots.. :)

its thursday, 4th of August .

back to you

2011-07-29T22:22:00.000+07:00

you appear just like a dream to me, when i look at you i cant even find my way back home because it always lead me to you.

2011-07-29T22:18:00.002+07:00

in fact when i say im okay, i want you to hug me tight and say "i know youre not"

if only

2011-07-29T22:13:00.001+07:00

if only..
a) i could look into your eyes sharply every minute of my everyday
b) i could kiss your smile whenever you smile at me
c) i could go anywhere, wherever you are
d) i could destroy the barriers time and the whole wall which is block me to reach you
e) i could assure you that i will always give you the love in your everyday
f) I could create a night where the moon and the stars shine bright and promise you the words i-love-you, singing even though the music not humming, and marry you today and everyday
g) i could warm the love you gave to me and keep away the cold
h) and you tell me yours....gerard

2011-07-29T21:51:00.000+07:00

"tonight I'm tangled in my blanket of clouds. dreaming aloud. things just won't do without you its a matter of fact."

2011-07-29T01:29:00.002+07:00

you made me fall in love with you all over again , today, tomorrow, everyday and forever, gerard

2011-07-29T01:23:00.000+07:00

summer at night in Bakoel Koffie bintaro sektor 7, me, you, a few songs was shared, in our first date exactly 5 months ago, i can even remember the topics we talked about that afternoon :)